I have no idea how many people read this blog.
So, I'm writing as though it is a diary of mine. Yet , a Front page article. lol
I'm about to embark on a human parallelism.
One that probably people would have a hard time understanding.
It is a parallelism that spouts contradictions in taste, common sense,
saneness, and almost insanity.
Some people call them similarities, commonalities, etc..
What could be so baffling, one wonders?....
I have 2 Favorite singers.
In favoritism order, they are
1. Clay Aiken
2. Marshall Mathers aka Eminem
I call it my Good vs Evil complex, or better yet, my Angel vs Devil Life.
Lots of people can't understand, if I'm a full blown, all out,
Claymate, who puts Clay Aiken as my #1 Singer,
How the Hell can I stand to listen to Eminem?
I laugh at their failure to comprehend.
I like to say that Eminem is what Clay might have become,
if he too,had been raised by a mother who emotionally wasn't there for him much.
They share quite a few 'life changing' experiences,
and individually chose which way to 'express' their anger, pain, sadness.. etc.
I share some of their 'life changing experiences',
and apparently I live vicariously through their songs.
Some common 'Life changing' denominators between them are;
1. Raised without a fathers love
2. Bullied in school, when they were young
3. Suffered through a relative committing suicide.
4. They have expressed their 'guilt' feelings over those suicides,
either in written word, or song.
5. Considered 'underdogs' in the world of media
6. Continuously having to 'Pay their dues' in the music industry.
My similarities to theirs:
1. Raised, and molested by a father, until the age of 6, whereupon he 'ran out on us'.
2. My mother became an alcoholic until my teenage years. Emotionally, she wasn't there.
3. My sister committed suicide through alcoholism 1 month after the 911 incident.
4. I've spent a life of surviving in silence, but with a healthy God fearing mind.
Keeping it all inside ourselves, the 3 of us have learned how to get the pain released.
On my angry days, I toss Eminem into my CD player.
I have a killer stereo system in my car, and Yes, I blow it out of my speakers.
I play it long, and I play it loud, until my anger subsides,
and I am once again at peace with the world.
Once I've gained control back of my emotions,
I'm ready to put Clay in the CD player
Eminem makes my mental thoughts gain perspective,
and Clay brings comfort, joy, peace, and tranquility to my heart.
Eminem lashes out at this cruel world, and takes his world back that way.
It's the best you can do when you've been basically a life long 'orphan'.
It makes sense, it feels right. He is also one of the best fathers I've ever seen.
He learned from his lonely life, what others need of him, and with his daughter Haille,
he delivers.
Clay reaches out to the world lovingly, and won't let the it snatch the life out of him.
Clay, also has learned from his loneliness as a young boy.
He's turned his life experiences in to finding ways to help fill emotional gaps,
physical afflictions, and mental challenges,with his foundation for working with Autistic children. The BubelAiken Foundation aka BAF.
I can't let either of these 2 guys go, they seem to be part of what I need in MY life.
These 2 guys and God.
God, Clay, and Eminem
'Lose yourself in the music,the moment you own it, you better never let it go.'
(from the Album 'Curtain Call', by Eminem)
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