Christmas Is Almost Here, Clay!

Christmas 2009, is soon approaching. This year especially, has been a year of reflection for me.
I've spent the last 2 years going through Chemotherapy for Ovarian Cancer. With 2 remissions, and now a third recurrence coming. I've learned all over what 'having regrets' is all about.
I wouldn't be where I am today, without my family support behind me, and they mean the world to me.
I've had 2 different Oncologists tell me within a month of each other, that I WILL die from this Cancer. I thought I was always the kind of woman who wanted the truth, no matter what the cost.
I was wrong.
Their words removed my 'HOPE', and depression set in something fierce.
All my life, I've been taught that 'someone always has it worse than me, no matter what battle I may be in.
I temporarily forgot my own motto, as I sunk deeper and deeper. I lost my hope, I lost my fight, and I lost the will to even get up each day.
I kept searching, and searching for a way to escape my selfish thoughts, almost to no avail.
Within the last 3 weeks, I happened to see a child in a wheelchair on tv, who obviously had life worse than I. Just the fact that the wheelchair is the only way they can live, was enough knowledge to take away my selfish self pity ways.
Since that day, my HOPE is back, my struggles are lessened, and I am once again in the Survivor mode of living.
This time of year, being a hard core Clay Aiken fan, is my favorite for listening to Clay singing.
Fortunately, I met Clay on November 5th, 2005 at the JNT concert in Eugene, Oregon
He is indeed a Man of Integrity, Upstanding Character, Morals , Values, and Honesty.
Having his Christmas music to listen to as I go through these battles, I am not unarmed. I am not a loser, I am a winner!!!





May you and your family always turn to each other for the love, and May you, and your family always turn to Clay Aiken, for the beauty of his voice, as he sings out the traditional Christmas songs that bring all of us closer to one another. Whether it be family, or Clay fans.
Dear Lord.... Bless my loved ones, my Clay friends, and Clay, Parker, and Jaymes. Oh, and don't forget Grandma Faye!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!!!
Martigyrl

Top video.. Celebrate Me Home!
Bottom video.. O Holy Night
*If you listen real quiet....****** You Can Hear The Angel Voices******
[videos courtesy of 'spotlightlover' taken in Portland, Oregon Nov.4th 2005]